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holiday card + mix cd = YESPLS.

Mon, 16 Nov 2009 03:41:16 GMT

okay, so here's the deal. i have over 50 mix cds that i have made for myself, starting in about 2002 and ending sometime recently. (i still make myself mix cds, but i also still listen to the more recent ones.) i used to walk around campus with a discman, and i would also take them home and turn them into tapes so i could listen to them in my car. they are quite literally a random assortment of whatever i am listening to at the time- there are a group of cds from spring '04 that all start with the same common rotation and billy boyd songs, for instance. if i had more patience, i would go through them all and make tracklistings, rip the songs i still like, and draw a chart explaining how my musical taste has evolved. i do not have any patience though, so you will have to figure this all out on your own.

the other thing is- i don't really label cds. sometimes i'll write a date, or color the disc in blue (probably emo music), or scrawl "study disc" on it (probably upbeat music to keep me awake in a computer lab). there are a lot of blank discs though. and a handful with tracklistings, mostly from when i had that radio show and needed to know what i was playing. those almost all lack cursing! (i say "almost all" because nobody told me panic! at the disco said "whore" and "goddamn" in their song 97 times before i played it on the radio. thanks, friends!)

you are, of course, welcome to mock my taste after listening to the mix cds. some of the songs are embarassing now, i guess. or they would be, if i was the type of person who felt shame. fortunately, i was born without that gland!

if there is something in particular you want- a certain year, a theme of some kind (i have roadtrip mixes and christmas mixes and easter mixes (mixes to make me survive an easter at home, not easter music), one of the hot trash (radio show) discs, a blank one cos you dig adventure- let me know.

i am also going to send a mix cd of non-traditional christmas music. if you like traditional christmas music, you might want to opt out of this. one of the songs is called "fist me this christmas" so CONSIDER YOURSELF WARNED.

HOKAY, SO. holiday card + a mix cd. i do not care if we are friends. (srsly- complete strangers who are willing to give me an address can have a cd. tell your friends!) i do not want you to send me something in return. (i would not say no to a mix cd, but you are not obligated at all.) it does not matter where you live. if you cannot fill out the poll, you can leave a comment (they are screened) or fill out my formspring. please just take these damn cds off my hands.

View Poll: holiday card + a mix cd!

Sat, 14 Nov 2009 03:22:05 GMT

this week has been so effing crazy, you guys. i am finally all moved in to the new apartment (HUZZAH) and i am going to spend this weekend unpacking and getting settled in. and writing. i am so far behind on nanowrimo. SUCK. there will be chinese food tomorrow though. i have been dreaming about it all week but i have been cruelly denied lo mein time and time again. I SHALL PREVAIL!

anyway. the say anything show on wednesday? was so fucking good. one of the best this year, definitely. i enjoyed the miniature tigers, and i was not crazy about the second band, and i would have liked eisley more had the lead singer not been the lead singer (she was pretty boring. i really liked the songs where sherri sang though), but say anything were just outstanding. outstanding boys, outstanding setlist, outstanding crowd... "ahhhhh... men" is going to stick with me for a long time, is the thing. it was so good that i seriously considered trying to get a ticket to the thursday night show even though i obviously had to finish cleaning and packing thursday night. SO GOOD.

and it was national unicorn appreciation day! i usually do a lot more, but i was obviously way busy and unable to bake or cut up the children's unicorn halloween costume i bought or do anything else exciting. i need to start putting together a plan for 2011 though, for serious.

(oh man. epic discussion on twitter right now because a lot of us listen to "crappy" pop music and bunny is pained by this. weeeeeeeeeeeeeee.)

i took tonight off to watch castle and eat too much pasta and now argue about music, but i am going to unpack everything this weekend, write at least 12,000 words, and set up the holiday card thing. and if i have time left over, i am going to paint 400 pete wentzes in momebie's room while she's away. :D

i have too many cds. (again.)

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 02:59:50 GMT

UGHHHHH why can't i be a normal member of my generation and prefer digital music to cds? i have too many cds. i can't really enjoy an album if i don't get the physical cd, because i play all my music on shuffle because it's mostly background noise. but actual cds get played and played and played and i fall head over heels in love. (for instance: i downloaded the bell horses album the day it dropped on amie street, listened to it once, really liked it, and didn't listen to it again until i bought the actual cd, which has not left my car's cd player since i got it.) (that album is really fucking good, check it out. it sounds like music that would have played at the bronze ♥)

while packing, i put all of the random cds that were floating around my apartment into the gigantic cd case i have and it was full. completely full, with a lot of mix cds double and triple stacked. and some cds in my car. and some cds hanging out elsewhere. and i said "SELF! you cannot buy ANY MORE CDS until you fix this problem!" except then i went to park ave last week and bought, uh, four new cds. (new albums from pearl jam, olp, say anything, and mike doughty, with a bonus free say anything lp and free mike doughty album that i already have and therefore gave to momebie.) fuck. fuck fuck fuck.

i feel bad throwing out cds (although i threw out a stack of cds yesterday- trust me, they were crap), and i could just get rid of all the old mixes i made in college, but...so wasteful. does anybody want some old mix cds? i never did tracklistings, just dates or sometimes themes. so surprise mix cds! maybe i should do a holiday card + a mix cd. hmmm. let's figure this out WITH SCIENCE!

View Poll: yet another thing i can procrastinate nanowrimo with!

my laundry can keep waiting for me.

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 05:03:05 GMT

i had several awesome plan offers for friday night, but then my boss came in and gave me free tickets to halloween horror nights so...i cancelled other plans and did that. i had never been to universal, you guys! i will see damion suomi again eventually, i promise. anyway, lots of fun was had that night with kl and john.

yesterday i slept forever and then started the epic painting of the wall. (kl and i made one of the walls in our living room into a giant chalkboard, with lots of help from tall people.) after that, we went to em's for movies & soup. i have truly terrible taste in movies, so i was really enjoying redneck vampires from space (or whatever it's called) until we turned it off. i have finally seen nightmare before christmas though! and also my friends are WAY CREEPY, what with the watching children in california trick or treat via the internet thing.

today i slept a lot more and got really confused about what time it was. then i went to target for discounted halloween stuff (it was a bust) and ended up with some stalkers. i think i shall move in with one of them next week. anyway, we finished painting the wall after some outrageous issues taping up the border. i have it on good authority that it looks fab though, so hooray!

oh also i wrote over 2000 words for nano. !!!! that is more than i have written in the last five attempts. combined. WHAT IS THIS BULLSHIT? oh btw, my story involves a long roadtrip across the country, so if you know of anything stupid my characters should do or see, let me know! i will probably start making up attractions soon since i have never been further west than pa.

this is possibly my favorite icon ever. for obvious reasons.

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 02:00:46 GMT

i feel like i should put a disclaimer on my lj about how wretched i am at responding to comments. or posting comments in general. if i don't respond as soon as i read the email notification, i tend to forget all about it until the next time i clean out my inbox. and my inbox has been very uncharacteristically (are there too many letters in that word?) messy lately, so...even worse than usual at responding. *sucks* I AM JUST A NATURAL LURKER, OK?

in news that is less about how useless i am: OLP! TWICE! DECEMBER! EEEEE! tickets have been purchased! and possibly third eye blind again, cos they are coming back the day between those two shows. and i keep stealing momebie's awesome friends, so it will be an even MORE exciting weekend!

hm, what else? kl and i got the sexiest effing calendar for the living room tonight. no, not the rpattz one. or the high school musical one. it's old pulp art. hotttt. and the second volume of the umbrella academy got released early, so i picked that up! no sign of rachelcaine's new one, sadly. it officially comes out next week though, so i'll survive.

oh, and the TAI show last night was aweeesome. except for the part where the opening bands were 100% horrible. but then we had bill and bill's suspenders and bill's adorable need to act out each song as he sings it. and the rest of the band! woo! heh. such fun. i have to cut down on the all ages shows though, because i really cannot handle these kids who wear cardigans as dresses. BUY SOME PANTS. (i can't stop talking about this either.)

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 01:57:53 GMT

if i weren't attempting nanowrimo, i think i would do nablopomo for real this year. i haven't been posting much at all (still more than SOME PEOPLE, ahem) for a lot of dumb reasons (i hang out with a bunch of you in real life, or i have interesting convos on twitter, or i post all the fun links to tumblr, or i get home from work and can't make myself do anything other than crawl into bed (this is probably the main reason), or my natural lurker status comes back, or all i want to think/read/talk about is fall out boy, or WHATEVER) which kind of sucks because this journal exists so that i can go back and say "yes, life was good." i do that a lot because i have such a wretched memory and because i often have trouble stepping back and seeing what matters.

and even, like, yes, the wrock show at theemdash's house was amazing and fun and i love those bands, etc etc. but MORE amazing and fun was giggling with my friends, and lookatthisfuckinghamster.com, and feeling part of a community. but then i come back here and find it hard to talk about because a lot of the people who were there are on my flist and like, i'm not here to recap their lives? or whatever. it was easier in college when there was no overlap between people who read my lj and people who lived life with me. PLUS the internet was my escape from them (and they were my escape from the internet) so now that there is no such boundary, i don't really know what to do with this all.

somewhat relatedly, the closer i get to moving in with momebie, the happier i get. i really love living alone, but more and more i can see that it is not really good for my mental health. i'm not even nearly the hermit i used to be- i see my friends several times a week, and i'm MUCH more social on things like twitter than i was before, and in general i feel better mentally than i have in years. i just find myself coming home and saying "good, i'm home, i'm not going to talk to anyone for 48 hours." and then i don't read lj or tumblr, and i hardly talk on twitter, and i don't check my email, and i basically forget my phone exists. which i am sorry about, if i've ignored you recently. some days it's too hard to beat the anxiety back, and those are the days i stay in bed and choose to forget the world outside my apartment exists. and then i feel like a total asshole forever :/

URGH.

unrelatedly, there is no way i am going to complete my book goal for the year. 100 books was way too ambitious (although, to be fair, work was so slow that i hardly had any reading time this summer) and i feel like crap knowing i won't get there. i really dislike not meeting my goals, urgh. i read a decent amount of stuff that was both time-consuming and outside my comfort zone (several non-fiction books, for starters), and i should be able to hit at least 75, but still. unhappy. need to decide if i want to set a smaller goal next year or work harder.

i blew my shows goal (15) out of the water though. 22 so far, not including all the random sets i've caught at the community market. and i'm going to at least 4 more this year. (TAI, say anything, olp, the olp/patd/say anything/every other band ever show, and then maybe the mountain goats, maybe joshua radin, almost definitely damion suomi next week, and i might check out the anti*pop festival even though there aren't really any bands listed that i care that much about. and i'm still considering the cobras show haha. AND there's still a lot of unclaimed dates on the calendar. so at least i can feel good about this one.)

also: best icon ever.

Sun, 18 Oct 2009 20:45:26 GMT

so, i think i am doing nano. i mean, i am signed up. but i've signed up before. november is just historically a bad month for me to do something like nano! but i've signed up and bought a new moleskin and have a tentative plot and plan and if i succeed, there shall be prizes. for me. the prize for the rest of you will be 50,000 cracktastic words from my brain to your internet, which is not really a good prize, unless you are a fan of my brain's special brand of crack. (which, let's face it- if you are reading this, you probably are.)

in less stupid plans news, supernatural is on fire and i love it a whole lot. i have been thinking about it almost as much as i have been thinking about pete wentz & co. (which is a sickening amount, to be honest.)

in music news, i just bought a hard copy of the bell horses album! YAY. i still haven't bought mike doughty's album because i'm still annoyed at how terribly it was marketed and also the fact that he is not touring down here. and also that there are tracks i cannot buy because of my raging hate for itunes. and i mean, i have so many cds here that i haven't listened to yet, so whatever mike doughty. i am on your mailing list and i read your blog and your twitter and your new album still took me by surprise. THAT IS NOT OKAY.

in conclusion, i think the orlando and boston fangirl brigades should rumble. or be penpals. like when you were in elementary school and you became penpals with kids at a school far away? actually, i need to send a care package up that way. it will happen while i pack next weekend, aren. (MOVING IN LIKE, 3 WEEKS OMG WHAT.)

Mon, 12 Oct 2009 03:29:34 GMT

it's been a crazy effing week, so i haven't watched all of my tv. enjoyed castle, REALLY enjoyed spn, and like project runway. might watch the rest (dollhouse, models of the runway, maybe vampire diaries) tomorrow night, depending on when i get home.

it was such a crazy week for mostly awesome reasons though! i mean, yeah, work fucking sucked above and beyond what it needed to suck. but i got a lot of reading done! and then there was an AWESOME wizard rock show, and prepping for the wrock show, and dancing at the wrock show, and having a blast in general before and during and after the wrock show. and scifigirl is down so it was like an EXTRA DOSE OF AWESOME. and then there was more work, and more work, and lots of cranky workness. but tonight i went to epcot for the first time! we went on this amazing life-changing ride in mexico, and learned portugese in the golf ball thing, and sang about being on a boat in norway, and saw sister hazel, and ate too much, and i got married to sara! it was so much fun and i managed not to buy any tiny waving cats. \o/

and now i need to go sleep because work is probably going to suck tomorrow. but i get to go down and tell my apt complex i am moving out next month! weeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Tue, 06 Oct 2009 03:12:01 GMT

in honor of angel's ten year anniversary, i am reading some old fic that we wrote on the buffy board. specifically, a fic written by getaway_machine in which the boardies must band together to climb the mountain and fight queen riley. or something. idek, you guys. anyway, i am tormenting ashley with snippets, and we had this conversation:

lisa: don't you kill me in this fic?
ashley: I think so
lisa: what a bitch
ashley: I think I also cry about it.
ashley: oh, fiction

can you believe i have been best friends with this bitch for nine years or whatever?!

(you can find all sorts of delightful fic here, if you can navigate the hilariously bad website. i'm reading the fighters if you are lazy though!

Sat, 03 Oct 2009 16:50:46 GMT

supernatural: oh man, LOVED this episode. future!dean/wishverse!buffy is my new otp. future!castiel freaked me out and cracked me up. future!chuck is my favorite ever. i found the conclusion pretty obvious, but i loved it anyway. and this was seriously one of the gayest things i've ever watched.

castle: enjoyed this ep quite bit, even thought i'm sad that we didn't get nathan in a dress.

project runway: this was a pretty boring ep, especially for a team challenge. but kors is such a bitch and that made it way better. didn't much care about the winner OR the loser, to be honest.

dollhouse: booooring.

oops. did i give up on fringe already? someone let me know if i should bother with it anymore. or if i should watch the episodes of the vampire diaries that i have downloaded.

Sun, 27 Sep 2009 20:36:49 GMT

supernatural: i thought this ep was kind of blah and boring and awkward (SO AWKWARD. pls never buy an angel a hooker, you guys. it can't end well.) and then the last five minutes made me sit up and say "holy fuck, show. WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?" i had that thought about sam last season- that he would truly be the antichrist and it would be brother vs. brother, but i dismissed it as being too simple. :( :( :(

i love castiel's story though- i love stories about angels questioning everything they believe in (cos angels are hardwired to NOT question it), and i love castiel and the relationship he has with dean. not just in a stupid boyfriend sense- they really do look out for each other and they've both stepped away from everything they've known because of their trust for each other.

castle: :( i'm really happy that this isn't staying the silly show i thought it was going to be. castle and beckett are so awesome, and i really hope they are never anything other than friends.

project runway: i know a lot of you were freaking out on twitter about the results, but i was not displeased. i thought louise WOULD go home, but i didn't think she SHOULD. in the end, the garments have to be wearable, and his was not. at all. and i was okay with the winner, because his (i still do not know all their names, ok? i refer to this one as "the boy with the terrible hair" normally) was a gorgeous and complete look.

dollhouse: i watched "epitaph one" first, in case it was important. it wasn't. it also wasn't really watchable. even with a good idea of what it was, i had no fucking clue what was going on for most of it. uch. parts of the episode were interesting, but overall it was kind of boring. i got up and ate lunch in the middle. paul should continue wearing that leather blazer jacket...thing. forever. /shallow

really interested in the saunders/whiskey story, although it's kind of icky that boyd wants to date her. she's not a real person! it makes the whole paige railstone issue more intriguing (paige railstone is a dj who is not real. except she kind of is. except she was created by The People, so she's not. but she has a real internet presence.) and more real, because obviously saunders IS real. she has thoughts and feelings and she is a person. but she is a person who was wholly created by another person, so is she really a person? it's easier with the other actives, because they, as a general rule, DON'T have thoughts and feelings that weren't planted there. but whiskey has come beyond that and has begun to create a new person where there was just a doll.

fringe: how much longer will i watch this show just for peter and astrid? (and peter/astrid?) i don't care about the crazy longview that jj likes to put in his stupid shows, cos i don't think he does it well. you want to impress me with a "here is how it alllll comes together" story? watch supernatural. i am blown away by the complexity of that canon, and for four seasons i didn't even realize it was building to something so grand. so basically i am watching fringe for each episode's pure enjoyment factor, and i'm not even really enjoying them. i have a feeling this will be the first to get the boot this season.

Thu, 24 Sep 2009 02:09:50 GMT

it makes me sad that i watch so much tv (for me. but srsly, i'm up to 5 shows!) and you people never post about my shows anymore. i only started watching most of these shows so i could read my flist! :(

so, i have been loaning my coworkers books. first i gave t. the anita blake series (loved it, and is now annoyed that she has to go to the library for the rest because i stopped buying when they stopped being good), then i gave her night world (thought the first few were kinda dorky but otherwise liked 'em), and now she's reading vampire diaries (had trouble getting into them at first, but can't put them down now). i think i am going to give her weather warden next. is this a good plan? she originally asked for violent/gory vamp books, but then i just started shoving this other stuff in her face, and now i'm afraid that morganville won't be dark enough for her :/

(speaking of vampire diaries: i've read the books more times than i should admit in public, so it's making me kind of sad that we're two eps in and i have no clue what is going on. i am especially unhappy with damon's characterization, although i suppose he seems like this big of a douche in the books early on too. urghhhhhhhh. i don't think i can watch a whole season of this show. it is not lulzy enough.)

OH BTW. i read the hunger games by suzanne collins today. i feel like i am way late on this, but WHOA AWESOME.

going to starbucks and being an asshole will never not be fun.

Wed, 16 Sep 2009 03:02:14 GMT

DECLARE YOUR ALLEGIANCE!

who threw the overalls in mistress murphy's chowder?

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 01:17:36 GMT

you guyssssssssssssss. dragon*con was awesome and i am once again sad to be back in the real world.

(the pictures all link to twitpic, so if you followed my twitter while i was gone you don't need to click them.)

thursday involved driving (sleeeeepy), getting my badge, not giving blood even though i was CRAZY EXCITED ABOUT GIVING BLOOD cos i'm a tard and got a tattoo the night before, and then fangirl (and boy) dinner. i can honestly say that if i had to come back from d*c and things like the fangirl dinner to the life i had in nj (which was decidedly fangirl-free- i mean, awesome, but still fangirl-free) i would cry all the time. fortunately that is not the case. after dinner momebie and i ~~got lost~~ wandered around looking at art and gearing up for the exciting events that were about to start.

thursday night was the first voltaire concert. i had never heard voltaire before (in fact, out of all the concerts i went to this weekend, the only band i had heard before was abney park, and i only heard part of their set and also i was drunk at the time. you may remember it as the time getaway_machine molested snape. hee.)) but it was an acoustic show and that was all that mattered. voltaire is, fortunately, fucking awesome. we somehow managed to be front row, and he is a total cam-whore and hovered in front of us a lot. i had a lot a lot a lot of fun.

friday, i headed down to the ya lit track for coming soon (a preview of books coming out this fall) and black woman missing (a discussion on race and gender disparity in ya lit). the book preview was fun, and i like the librarian who is running it a lot. the black woman missing panel could have been a lot better- i have been following the discussion about LIAR and it's true that the books i read are pretty white-washed and that's a problem, but i swear to god one of the panelists said we just need to start buying more books with minorities in them and then in a couple of years minorities will be all the rage because "that's what happened with vampires!" ::facepalms:: first of all, please do not equate minority groups to vampires. second of all, and i should really not need to tell people on a panel this, but ya lit is cyclical, moreso than grown-up lit. vampires are huge right now. vampire were huge 10-15 years ago too. ya lit cycles in a fairly dependable manner, and vampire books are not going to be on top forever. or for much longer, probably. i'd give it two years TOPS before something else steps up, and i've still got my money on fairies. (magic users / schools were fucking everywhere from about when gof came out til about when hpb came out. before that fairies had a decent showing. before THAT it was realistic fiction. before that it was vamps. i don't know if the sales figures will back me up, but as a reader of ya lit, this is really how it felt.)

anyway, after that i headed to the tom felton panel with kl and theemdash. tom felton is seriously adorable and charming and well-spoken. i was really impressed, especially since this was his first con. after that we went through the dealer rooms, maybe got some food, and crashed some panels for shows i don't watch. (true blood and stargate. i spoiled kl for the season where daniel turns into a merman- sorry guys!) then we went to a panel on tattooing in the eastern world, which was interesting and, if nothing else, had pretty pictures.

(oh, haha. so we're sitting in the food court, and i kept randomly pointing out good costumes, which sometimes led to my friends fleeing the table to take pictures. (poor sirius.) and then this large group comes walking in our direction, and i look at them, then look at the table to see if anyone else is seeing what i'm seeing, then look at tom effing felton (so pretty) and stare at him as he walks by, then look at my friends (who are all talking about stargate or something at this point) and start laughing. tom felton! we could have kidnapped him if only we had all been more observant!)

oh! this is the night the hotel effed up our room and made our keys stop working! that was fun! fortunately em is amazing and helped us straighten it all out, but the woman working the desk was worse than useless.

after that, i went to the abney park show with kl and corey, and we ran into scifigirl and her band of hooligans there. much ridiculous dancing ensued. abney park was a lot of a fun, and they had a bad-ass accordian. went to bed way too late again, yay.

(oh, i wore my jenny shirts thursday and friday, and had about 7 people stop me and ask about them. this happens all the time when i wear my "justice is her reward" shirt too. THE ~~LADIES~~ PEOPLE LOVE JOY.)

saturday started off with a steampunk panel with kl. i find steampunk to be very aesthetically pleasing, but i plan to read/watch some more because it's interesting as a movement too. at some point that afternoon i ditched life and went back to my room to take a nap / watch wizards of waverly place. (stop judging me.) i think this was about when the dizzy spells kicked in? yeah, those are fun.

i went to a really interesting panel on religion in btvs/spn after that. it was run by a catholic priest, the people who run the whedon track, and two girls from the ya lit track. it was almost entirely interesting, informative, and respectful. and there were some badass winchester cosplayers (sam, dean, castiel, mary, ruby, and bobby. BAD. ASS.) sitting behind me.

then i went to a science fiction in ya panel, which was cool. i don't read a lot of sci-fi, and i think part of it is that ENDER'S GAME thoroughly terrified me and is also one of my favorite books of all time. other sci-fi just has trouble measuring up! got some good recs though.

after that i headed next door to help set up stargate game night. i only stayed for two games of "are you a whatever-that-word-is-i-am-too-lazy-to-figure-out-how-to-spell-it?" which was sad. in those two games though, i managed to get everyone to decide i was evil, so that's a win. there was soooo much other stuff to do though, so i didn't get to stay and have hangtimes with my friends. *sadface*

i met kl for dinner (amazingly, she does not yet seem to be sick of my face) and then we went to a steampunk music panel. this ended with a pretty awesome and ridiculous sing-along of old songs. then we tried to go to the fucking cabaret and were thwarted AGAIN. dragon*con just does not want us to see that cabaret, y'all.

after THAT we went to see the hellblinki sextet and i fucking fell in love. looooooooove. jesus eff, you guys. valerie sings and plays accordian and miniature piano and is just all-around amazing. we wormed our way up front shortly before she played the most amazing thing i've heard in all my life. i just. okay. if zombies had attacked that ballroom while she played "you are my sunshine" i honest-to-god would not have noticed. at all. i was completely enraptured. i had chills for the entire song, and i don't think i blinked at all, and i may have stopped breathing. kl recorded it because kl is 100% awesome, so you can see it for yourself here.

and okay, the rest of their set was great too. and so was voltaire's. (he covered mcr! there may have been jazz hands!) but jesus fuck you guys! her cover of "white rabbit" was similarly amazing.

again: bed way too late, but i was on cloud fucking nine so it didn't matter.

it also didn't matter because on sunday i slept until 12:30. i didn't even have any panels tentatively highlighted, so that was nice. i met people for lunch, then went to the dollhouse panel. it was pretty lame though and hard to hear, so we ditched early and went to hellblinki's concourse show. they played with some friends (they were a real sextet!) and a dude ATE GLASS OMG and it was fabulous.

at some point before this i got cds. (i remember cos they were stabbing me all through the concourse set.) i bought one of abney park's (the one kl and em don't have, i believe), one of hellblinki's (and if you thought i was awkward talking to rachelcaine last year you should have seen me try to talk to valerie. HOO BOY. i think i managed to stutter out "you were A-M-A-Z-I-N-G last night!" and i took her picture so i could put her as my phone bg instead of dan romer. YES THAT'S RIGHT. i removed romer and replaced him with a girl. both pictures feature accordians though, so we know where my loyalty truly lies.), and one of voltaire's (i got him to sign it, and i was going to tell him what a jerk he is for getting that damn cantina song stuck in my head when i haven't even seen star wars, but then a bunch of fans showed up behind me and i fled).

after the concourse show we hung out and watched people come up the escalator for an hour or so. (no joke! it was fun.) the 501st had strict orders to stay away from me, so the largest group of stormtroopers i saw all weekend was 3, and kl said she would stab me if i asked them to poke her. *sigh* then we went to see the atlanta radio company record a radio show, and alienated people in line by suggesting a high school musical / x-men crossover to them.

we were pretty beat after that and had to get up early, so i went back to my room and had epic conversations with myras_girls and green_grrl and kl and corey. it was a nice low-key night, and especially fun since i didn't spend much time with chrysta and corey even though i was rooming with them. plus i got to learn all about the mad scientist's balls! (snerk.)

on monday i didn't go to any panels. got up way early, packed, met people for breakfast and lunch, and had lots of hangtimes. i did not get to spend NEARLY enough time with sara, which is way tragic, but we had fun being tards that afternoon. also gay married kl before breakfast. the day was def a success!

final swag count: three cds, one absolutely ridiculous keychain (from voltaire), and a firefly shirt. and i bought a few things at the art show. i almost bought $50 steampunk earrings, but i resisted. (there was actually a LOT of sexy earrings that i wanted, but i hardly ever wear them anymore.)

i had such a good time LARPing as a douche with all my honey jellies, and i wish it never had to end. (it really can't end- i've made too damn many friends.) (yeah i went there.)

on the plus side: ONE MONTH TIL THE WHOMPING WILLOWS AND JFF AND FRED LIVES, ZOMG!

nerd convention!

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 22:09:15 GMT

View Poll: because momebie does not believe us.

SO! who's coming to dragon*con? who's doing the thriller dance with momebie and me? what twitter users do i need to follow on my phone? is there a standard d*c twitter tag? (i don't think the * will work?) is there anything you would like me to look for for you? how many stormtroopers should i make out with? (if you need my digits, they can be found here. if you want me to have yours, either leave a comment and then delete it or txt me with who you are.)

YAY!

i shouldn't be allowed to update when i am this far backed up on replying to comments. (sorry.)

Mon, 24 Aug 2009 01:42:55 GMT

not that this has anything to do with anything (*shifty eyes*), but what bandom people besides pete and gabe dropped out of college? the ones who never went at all are, unfortunately, a whole other issue. (actually, we can name some of those too if there aren't enough dropouts in the crowd.)

this has been a really strange week.

Fri, 21 Aug 2009 00:19:18 GMT

i think life might be moving too fast. or maybe i'm just living it 100% and that's making it seem faster. idk. anyway, this week marks the anniversary of, well, this whole thing. i still think about it more than i should, but i didn't even realize the date until i started craving death cab and getting sad for no apparent reason and searching for certain people on twitter even though we all know that i am not allowed to speak to them under any circumstances, ever. anyway, i went back and reread my journal from that year before i could get sentimental about some things, and i realized a couple of things:

i am heartstoppingly grateful for you people.
i can't even begin to imagine what my life would be like if all of that had not happened.
and most importantly, whatever that imaginary life is, it could not possibly be better than the one i've got now.

i still feel the way i felt in that entry, but it's a duller ache and i can imagine the day when it won't there anymore. for a really long time, i thought it would never go away. i thought i would never feel that good again, like i would never truly be myself around other people ever again.

(jesus fuck. i am listening to pearl jam's self-titled album, which (a) was a huge feature in my life at the tail-end of this shit, and (b) can make me cry like nobody's business. and now i'm sending people soppy emails. i'm sorry.)

anyway, it turns out i was wrong. i still miss some of my old friends, it's true. i wish i could have pushed through that bullshit with just one more person. but the people i have now are amazing and brilliant and kind and hilarious and just, in general, the best, and i am so lucky to have them in my life. ♥♥♥

as an aside, the main reason i never talk about any of this more than vaguely in this journal is because i keep thinking, "oh, that was dumb. i can't possibly still be this hurt about it all. i'm sure i will be over it very soon and then i will feel silly for posting about it." except it's been years and it still hurts. i do not approve of these "feelings" and i wish you humans would keep them to yourselves. hmph.

i need a good tag for fake fob lyrics.

Sat, 15 Aug 2009 03:07:16 GMT

View Poll: i know what pete wentz really meant in "xo"

i'm not looking forward to taking the lego sets apart again.

Sat, 08 Aug 2009 00:20:20 GMT

plans are being made to move again this fall. i'm staying in town- i just need to get closer to the holy land experience and my favorite wee giraffe. & as much as i love living alone, i think having a roommate again will be good for me. ~~if only for plotting purposes, mwahahaha!~~

unrelatedly, i went to a septic tank show in daytona yesterday (it was about as exciting as it sounds) and ended up bickering with my electrician for a good two hours about cyborgs. at one point someone asked me if we were married. DO ALL MARRIED COUPLES HAVE INTENSE DISCUSSIONS ABOUT BEING KILLED BY ROBOTS?! anyway, it is pretty sad when, in a debate, i am the one calling you out for fuzzy logic. i'm happy for you that they had a robot who cried or whatever in star wars, but that is FICTION! computers cannot THINK or FEEL or DO THINGS OF THEIR OWN VOLITION! i am a sci-fi/fantasy fan who is, as a general rule, delusional, and yet i know these things to be TRUE!

we also discussed the origins of vampire mythology, star wars-themed alcoholic beverages, time travel, and why i hate higher education. sometimes i really wonder what people think when they eavesdrop on me, haha.

(oh PS: the orange county library system has changed their policy on dvds. the new policy sucks balls and i am a very unhappy person right now. if i could afford to drive all over this fucking town to take out dvds, i could afford netflix!)

getaway_machine missed another chance to nudge me.

Sun, 02 Aug 2009 03:52:59 GMT

ON BOOKS:
read cape storm, the latest weather warden book by rachelcaine. YOU GUYS! so good. SO GOOD. so many declarations of love & kisses! a VENNACORN!! kevin being an awesome dickface! etc! i am going to be crazy sad when this 'verse finishes. i'm glad that she doesn't want to torture jo anymore (and really, what's left to do to her at this point?) but i will miss lewis like crazy.

also recently finished the second scott lynch book (red seas under red skies) and HOO-BOY, i love him. the first half was not that exciting, but once they became pirates the book turned awesome. both excited and nervous about the next one- i'm kind of afraid of how it will end D:

and i read a little more than a third of kushiel's dart before getting permission to give up. there were way too many characters, and i really don't care about the politics of a ridiculous and made-up world. i feel like i fail at being a fantasy fan now. (i may give it another try, cos the library finally let me renew it. hm.)

ON MUSIC:
the new olp album has mostly grown on me, but it is by no means their best work. some of the songs are just completely terrible, and a lot of them sound the same. raine's a decent producer, but he should probably not be producing his own albums. ("paper moon" is still amazing though.)

i went to see the cab, a rocket to the moon, eye alaska, and...two other bands? rocket are totally adorable and really good. i was digging eye alaska a lot, and their bassist is super-cute. i am still not a big fan of the cab. i want to awesome, super-friendly, and ridiculously adorable drummer from summer set (or whatever they are called) to find a band worthy of her awesomeness. all in all: MUCH FUN WAS HAD. also, much liquor was had. these things may be related.

the fall concert schedule is starting to get interesting. i need to un-poorify myself so i can see some fuckin' shows.

ON TV:
we mainlined being human today. it was pretty awesome! i love how watching things with vampires always leads to "but i thought vampires [x y z]" and then a largely ridiculous debate on different vamp mythologies and their pros and cons which then leads to shunning people who have never seen buffy. weeeeeeee, friends!

ON THE INTERNET:
momebie started this awesome project called Scattering Stars which you can learn more about here. it basically involves drawing on photos and making people smile though, so you have no excuses for not participating.

collabing with some friends (theemdash! marilla82! momebie! you!) to make an awesome wizard rock directory / calendar / general site thing. tomorrow is layout til i die day! woo! relearning html (and teaching myself php / div layers) is hard but fun. i'll never be a great designer or anything, but i like the actual work of coding stuff so i think this is gonna be a good project. i'm really glad i have friends who nudge me until i dive headfirst into this kind of thing :p

Fri, 24 Jul 2009 00:29:36 GMT

this post is 90% to point out that getaway_machine has missed her chance to nudge me.

and 10% to say weeenewtimeconsumingprojects!

Thu, 16 Jul 2009 03:27:55 GMT

this week has been outrageous, you guys. i had an awesome weekend, and loved life a lot on monday, and then my car broke down monday night and i didn't sleep hardly at all and the mechanic people were annoying and i was the crankiest girl in the world, for realsies. a nap & a taco & my amazing friends made that all about a frillion times better ♥ (and the car is fine now. the battery dropped dead for no apparent reason and one of my electricians fixed it for me today.)

my hp shirt ended up looking pretty rad. i went with the ron design, cos i loff him. i'm sad that i made it with acrylics and not fabric paint, but that was all i had in the house so oh well.

and of course i went & saw hbp with the local gang. lots of fun was had. i liked the movie for the most part- it kind of dragged in parts, but it's a boring book so that was ok. dumbledouche wasn't treated like a goodamn saint, which made me way happy. (i realized at one point that i respect fucking jon more than i respect dumbles. that's so wrong.) the kids are all pretty outstanding, and tom felton is way hot, and i spent a lot of the night humming songs by draco & the malfoys. all in all, i probably liked the movie a bit more than i liked the book. (and i can't complain about canon changes, because i actually had to ask people whether the christmas scene was canon because i could not remember. yeah, i'm pretty awesome.)

the real reason for this post: i'm going to nj/ny tomorrow night and getting back sunday night. i am way excited. i am not bringing my laptop. sheena & my parents & surf taco & gretchen & west side story & whatever else, hooray!

Sun, 12 Jul 2009 20:43:57 GMT

i got a free dark grey shirt with a black lightning bolt on the front at the matt & kim show last week, so i'm turning it into an hp shirt for HBP on tuesday. can't decide if i want to make it a hufflepuff shirt (with a badger on the sleeve to cover the bacardi logo and maybe some yellow details on the front) or a ron shirt (with a "NO" sign over the bolt, "weasley is my king" on the back, and a red crown covering the bacardi logo). neither of these match the pants i'm wearing! the ron one is probably easier to make though. effing badgers!

also, i sat in a parking lot talking to a friend for several hours last night and didn't get home til 5:30 this morning. i really cannot say enough how much i love my life ♥

(couldn't find my jess tag, so i almost made a new one: epic douches friends forever. should i switch?!)

so, this happened.

Wed, 08 Jul 2009 02:28:53 GMT

i may have spent my evening helping my two favorite bands (panic! and at the disco) find some new members to fill out their line-up. ch-ch-check it out!

(yes, this icon IS the most amazing icon in the history of iconing. THANKS FOR ASKING!)

i am trying this new thing where i don't even pretend to sleep like a normal person.

Mon, 06 Jul 2009 06:10:32 GMT

people who are doing "101 in 1001" lists have inspired me! except mine is going to be more "random amount of things to do before i flee the southeast" i think. do you guys have any suggestions for things to do, places to eat, events to attend, or whatever in the southeast? preferably cfl-centric, but i'm probably headed to the midwest next, so i might as well get my southern jollies in while i can. (things that y'all used to do on class trips would be AWESOME, cos i obviously never did any of it.)